I used to think that people get tired of what they do after four solid years. That's the minimum number of years-four. However, I think I am getting tired of something that I have consistently been fighting for for three years. I've thought about this way before, but I put it off thinking that I was only in the heat of the moment. But this time, before things can go worse, call me a pessimist, I think I will be letting go off it, for good.

I wouldn't want to think that I got more of it than it got more of me. I had it when I was going through the roughest of days, but I don't think I am growing anymore, nor do I think it is growing with me anymore. I'm also convinced that standing up for things I believe in, things that I used to think will do it good, seems to be putting more divide within people.

Unlike the rest of the things that I threw in towels for, this is different. I did not have and do not have qualms about this with regard to how it relates to me. Admittedly, it's more of how I relate to myself. This might sound cliche, but hey, that's what it is.

Mom also reminded me a while back, and it's coming back, where I had my heart set in for. And with issues cleared, I think I am going back to where I really should have been focusing on from the start.