sabi kanina ni ate norie, "mon u look depressed." fuck, ganon na ba ka-sabog itsura ko? anyway, i can't help but feel down right now, ang shit ng nararamdaman ko. ang dami kong pinagpalit sa mga iba't-ibang bagay at medyo hindi ko alam kung tama tong mga pinagagawa ko. i should be resting my brain right now, but i can't help but think until i feel bad and sleep it all off, thus rendering me unproductive and boring. i have this perpetual feeling that i am forever waiting for something or someone. i don't really understand it, but when i look at how things wallow at home, i can't help but feel more sordidly unstable. hindi ako makagalaw sa mundo ko ngayon, i feel like i built poles around me without meaning to. kailangan ko ng baklasin tong mga shit ideas, shit mundane things that i think i have to be so i can be happy. here i am on a friday night at home, loser-like, riled-up against some invisible enemy.