Amidst the hustle and bustle of never-ending paperwork, I find myself lost in a flurry of feelings, I must admit, most of them coming from the deeper recesses of my gut, some feelings that are just resurfacing but have been gaining momentum. I am grieving, but I cannot explain how it is erratically making itself known. It gushes like the second day at times, but is shy and pitter-patters like the fifth and even sixth day at times as well. There are just some types of music that unlock that emotion, and you can't help but feel like you're in an experimental song dodging the percussions that are coming out of nowhere.