Shit this is the worst time to free fall into that mode. I should be keeping my drive should be at least in 2nd gear and nothing seems to keep me on the track even even that plaid im entering this emo fucking mode, more like what happened to me mode i miss the old times where i was keeping my head above the water but was experimenting all the while now i just feel so plain like a plain fucking plain jane i used to be mary jane but now i am a plain jane i want to shove responsibility in its own face i can't even get out of my mediocrity when can i learn to forgive myself when all the time is wasted and i find myself dazed and confused and shit i miss those spontaneous walks down a dark alley where spontaneity exceeds my lungs and is reciprocated by a willing victim ironic as it may seem i find no dark places of comfort i just want to rediscover myself but cannot fall victim again i've used up all my free cuts in life and for what for something more i hope so i hope i hope but i cannot seem to kick myself fast enough because i start floating away i wish someone could push me out of this gas chamber-slumber willing to dance to dance to no beat to every beat