In a week from now, I will be fixing loads of documents, sending them everywhere. On top of that, I have to think about where I will be spending May, in another place, in the same place, or just no specific place. I don't know why I am in such a relaxed state when the next weeks will require me to be on my toes.

Maybe it has to do with the realization that I do not want to be a grumpy empty shell consumed by hate when I grow up. I'm starting to like the fact that I will be smiling for the next weeks. I said, playful souls. It said, childish innocence.

Reflecting about what has happened for the past months/year, I feel consumed not by stress in work and academics, but by the general stress relating to emotions. I wish I could get hypnotized to get the feeling out whenever I feel like it is ready to snap back at someone.