Got me thinking when he said, ay nako noh, swerte sya. Might be true, after all. Not much pondering done over it because I have always put the bright quality up on top of the list, on a pedestal that it was eating me up, or rather, the admiration started chomping on my own.

And then I thought about other qualities that I possessed. I aim to please. And that got me thinking while I was comforting myself. How, in all those quick times, was I not able to feel comfort? Is it something deprived of the state I am in? I mean how hard was it to feel soothed in a sweltering day? Got me thinking about whether I was premature in this sense as well. Oh god, I'm 25 years old. Calling out on the cosmos to help.

So many things to work on, so little time. Maybe there are things that aren't so bad, but aren't worth pursuing.

Hay Monica. Give yourself some credit.