It's all about me, beybe

I had coffee with my family today, and somehow, as we reminisced about my childhood, my mom commented, "...anti-social ka kasi." It's funny because I realize how this has become the theme of my life. Although at times I appear to endlessly crack jokes, because of how isolation exudes comfort, I will have to deal with the fact I am 90% happy to be alone. I don't need to pressure myself to be with people, because it is only during the times where I find myself with people who make me feel alive that binds me to them. It just saddens me when I am uncomfortable sharing my feelings to people, especially to those who I really hold dear. I'd want to show them how I feel, but somehow, through habit, I have allowed myself to show feelings through everything else except through verbal communication.