Selfish time sembreak uhhh

I'm sick of worrying about things. I don't exactly remember the last time I was not anxious about something, and for some strange reason I don't recall having a summer break. We went to Negros, but I think it was still particularly stressing for me because the day right after it ended was the day I took my immersion. Not that I have anything against my immersion, but I miss hanging out, reading, watching, listening to absolutely anything. And I think I would like to hang out at the beach more often. I miss my old, wasted self. ha ha ha. I just miss not having to repress urges for the sake of having more time to worry about more things. It's hard to explain, really. But as the cliche goes, time for soul searching! Yeahah.