I was supposed to get a lion yesterday, but I said, no, that can wait until after the beach, until after everyone is okay with the idea. My mother, while insinuating how I SHOULD go to this reunion of our relatives from the US says, "This is a once in a lifetime opportunity. You better take this chance. Sayang." And I answer, " I am not obliged to. I barely know them." She knows it, I know it-we're not exactly in bestfriends-terms with relatives who put land before pinagsamahan. I guess I just find it ironic how when we're older, we tend to still hope for a certain situation, a dream, fixed relationships, blah blah, when we should have taken the leap years back.

And realizing that, on Friday, I will do things for myself for a change. I have gotten too grey.