Never tried placing myself in my sister's shoes. She's been bearing the brunt of the family in ways that I can only imagine theoretically doing. It seems like the natural thing to do nowadays, anyway. Haven't had much confidence in myself lately. Probably has to do with the fact that I can't get myself to concentrate on the things I want, and I'm getting ahead of myself when it comes to planning for lazy days. Don't want to start the year off with a negative vibe, though..Trying to surround myself with people who understand what I'm going through or have ready-to-use affirmation phrasebooks when it comes to careers. Should probably listen to other people more instead of running to the same watering hole every time I get into these situations. Time to make milestones that will change other people's tracks instead feeling my way into the next years.