Spoke to my mom, and it was a nice sharing, along with an earlier bonding with Mansy. I have been feeling sort of dead these past few days; don't really know what has gotten into me.

It just hit me right now; after I send that last parcel, I would have done everything in my capacity to make it work. Maybe it will be a good breather for me.

I realize how it is difficult to really practice some sort of religion. To religiously keep in mind and apply the tenets in your life looks and feels exhausting.

I'm glad I am spending time at home. It's good to reflect during months when you feel so used and floating at the same time. I actually do not know what will make me happy for the next few months.