Spending the whole day at home is as difficult as pretending to be busy at work. You have to trick yourself into thinking that everything is fine, and that everything can be and will be normalized according to one's/another's expectations.

I just received the TOR for the research assistant job from an LSIG-WB project. The outputs were basically highlighted, and per output that I finish, I get 20,000 in return. That would be okay, I guess, if they did not require me to travel or to be there most of the time.

Not quite sure what 2012 will be like. As far as my EQ is running, it has set up minimal expectation for the year. Not much expectations on climbing or getting a higher level of scuba diving experience. Just want to survive the year, and get used to normalcy. I want to get used to the feeling of being okay with the present.

I just wish, though, that I make up my mind regarding trying out for a degree anywhere else but here. But I still have hang-ups on getting that two-year straight job experience. No one will make me rich but myself. I should keep that mantra and remember its implications on the everyday.

Spending the day at home makes me feel like I have nothing to prove. Which is a good feeling, although I shouldn't get used to it too much.

I wish I were passionate about something. Hope to spend some passionate time with an activity soon. As in soon.